I've never really socialized, I've always been antisocial and preferred to be at home. I was never, even my late teens and early twenties, into clubs and parties and stuff like that.
I can't stand pills. I don't like drinking. I don't like feeling out of control. I have to feel like I'm in control of my body. And I know what you're thinking: Then why would I want to go to church and speak in tongues? You have to understand, there I feel safe.
I don't want to open my mouth or speak anymore, because everything I say becomes scandalous. It wears you out... so I'm a bit jaded.